Seeking God

Matthew 7:7-8
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knock, the door will be opened to you."

Psalm 5:1-3; 11-12
"Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my sighing. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you i pray. In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning i lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield."

this year sure is off to a seriously rocky start...more like a boulder sized troubling year. there has been a situation in our lives, other than the journey with our pregnancy with charlotte, one that at this time i cant give many more details about, that we have been honestly and constantly seeking the Lord for His guidance. we were seeking, we were asking (begging at times) and crying out for the Lord to hear our prayers and answer them. He had brought the situation to us and we were certain He was leading us through the whole thing. especially after all we have been through with the journey for and with charlotte, we were certain that God was giving us something to be excited about. well, we got the answer today and we are devastated because the answer is no. why would God tell us to ask, seek, cry out and pray and then deny those requests. why bring us the situation and take it away. we have been devastated, literally, twice in one month! i am more than sad. on top of our grief over the loss of our sweet charlotte we are now frustrated. we are totally confused about what to do. we know that God has a plan, but when is that going to start playing out in a good way? i am not mad at God, please hear me again, i am NOT MAD AT GOD. i just do not understand!!! we will continue to seek God and ask for guidance, peace, and comfort. we know He has us right where He wants us, but i am getting super uncomfortable...is that the point God???

there are so many other things that are going on in the lives of friends and family around us that we are crying out to God for. we are praying intently for our dear friend, elizabeth, who is now facing her battle with cancer head on. we are thankful for a successful surgery last friday, but we are praying as she is preparing to start chemo. we are praying for our friend sarah's dad, marv sparks, who was in a horrible car accident last week. marv will be in the hospital for a while, but God is working in his healing. we are praying for my sister, olivia, who is giving birth to a baby girl tomorrow (1.25.11). we are praying for a healthy baby and a peaceful labor and delivery, as well as our reaction to the whole situation during our grief. we are praying for my new friend lisa and her family as they anxiously await the arrival of baby jaxton. we are praying to the Great Physician to heal jaxton completely, praising Him because we know that He is more than able! we would love for you to join us in prayer for these dear friends...praying the above verses...asking, seeking, crying out, and praying!!

my prayer requests for tonight...please pray for our hurting hearts, this answer of no does not help our hurt that we already have. please pray that peter and i use this to grow stronger in our relationship with God and with each other. thanks for your continued prayer and support!

blessings, ALo