this is a big week for peter and me. on tuesday we have the follicle search and hcg injection. wednesday (depending on tuesday's finds) we will do an IUI. this past week my thoughts have been a little bit all over for the place. i think part of it had to do with doubling one of my hormones. the other side is knowing that this is the end of the infertility treatments for us. we are not giving up, but we do not want to do more than IUIs. we will be able to do more than one month if needed, but we do not feel that IVF is a good option for us and that is the next step. there are emotions there. i dont like to get discouraged, but sometimes it is hard not to. it has been 19 months so far and over 6 months of treatments. the thought of IUI is also hard for me because it seems peter and i are taken out of the equation so much. i know that God has given us the knowledge to have scientific advances and doctors and all of that. but this is not how we thought we would conceive a child...in a doctors office. but, life is often not how we think it is going to be. anytime i felt the emotions coming on, i tried to stop and be thankful for one of the many other blessings that God has given me. i have also been praying a lot this month, that we would give God all the glory in this journey. that we would be able to worship Him in and through it all.
on wednesday when we have the IUI, i will have to lay there for about 30 minutes. i am planning on making a playlist of worship songs to focus on. prayer and worship will make that wait so much better. i have a few songs on my list, but if you have suggestions for me...i will be all ears!
this week, i am praying that i have good follicles. that my body will respond to the treatments that i am on plus the injection tuesday. i am praying for a great wednesday...nerves, body responses, an open womb, and CONCEPTION!! praying i no longer have a hostile environment for a baby!! praying i can encourage others this week that are facing the next step of their journey as i face mine.
blessings, ALo
ps. i had thought about taking cupcakes to the doctors office on wednesday...happy conception day cupcakes (just believing it will happen)!! peter thinks i am crazy...i mean, i know i am, but i think it would be cute/fun/appreciated. thoughts??
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ReplyDeleteI love you! I'm praying!!! Did you get to come into service this morning? The song Rob sang today, Hope's Anthem, would be a good one! The lyrics to that song are so powerful. (And I think conception cupcakes is perfect and soooo you!!!)
ReplyDeleteHope's anthem is on my list. i loved it this morning!!
Delete"This is the Day for a Miracle" by Colt Straub...first verse and chorus especially. Also - definitely bring in cupcakes! They'll totally be appreciated and you will be the talk of the clinic :-)
ReplyDeletethanks, anonymous! i appreciate the in put, i will go listen now!!
DeleteFor some reason it wouldn't let me put a name! Michelle Oppeneer :)
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you this week! For perfect peace, for healthy follicles and conception, and for God's perfect plan! I think cupcakes would be fun!! Love you!
ReplyDeleteDecorate them with balloons that look suspiciously like sperm. :)
ReplyDeleteDear Aimee, you have been in my thought and especially my prayers. I will pray for you extra hard this week. Hope you come visit Ohio soon! Ps I like the sperm cupcake idea ;-)
ReplyDeletePs the last comment was Rachel Martin :) not anonymous
ReplyDeleteMy vote for a song to add to your collection if you dont already have it is "He Says" by Group One Crew....this song always reminds me that God gives me only what He wants me to have and that He KNOWS I will bless others with the trials I face. HUGS Amy...I know this has to be so hard.
ReplyDeleteMeredith in Tennessee
I read your blog all the time but have never posted. I just wanted to say that even though it seesm weird to have a life made in such a clinical enviornemnt (doctor'soffice) once that little one is in your arms you won't even think about it. I know, after three heart breaking losses I was so very blessed with a beautiful little girl last August. She was conceived through IUI, and while during the process I was an emotional mess it was all worth it in the end. You are in my prayers and I know that God's plan for you includes a child here on earth for you. Look to Him for guidance and He will reveal it. My favorite song is an oldie but a goodie, Our God is an Awesome God or I Can Only Imagine. Both songs brought me much joy during my tough times.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Kris