i wanted to share with you the poems that my mom read at her butterfly release. this first one actually came with the butterflies and the second she had read by a friend.
"a butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam, and for a brief moment, its glory and beauty belong to our world. but, then it flies on again, and although we wish it could have stayed, we feel blessed to have seen it."
"i never got to know you before you went away
becuase God took you home to heaven where we'll meet another day.
God says that you're His tiniest angel and you needed to come home.
for reasons we do not know, you went where angels roam.
please know how much i miss you and though i may not understand,
i will trust a God who's faithful and live the life that He has planned.
He says that you'll be a while now, so there's no need to cry,
then he reminds me of his son, who on the cross for me had to die.
i know one day i'll meet you, but for now i'll just stand still
and not question our Father's reason because i know it's His will.
if i look when it's darkest at the stars that twinkle bright,
i will see God's tiniest angel and the wings reflecting light."
i have been asked if having the celebration for Charlotte was helpful for me. yes. i still have grief. i still miss Charlotte everyday. but, it was so nice to be able to celebrate our love for Charlotte. i didnt know how i would feel after may18th, and i was kinda dreading feeling like i was just supposed to be "over it" because the due date came and passed. that didnt happen, and i am so glad that i did not put too much pressure on myself. so, not much as changed in my thinking since we are past the due date, but it is not worse...i still choose to get up in the morning and i still choose to look for the blessings of this new normal. i haven't heard from anyone that may have found a random balloon drifting in their yard...like lisa said, maybe they all just went straight to heaven :)
so, where is the slideshow of the photos! arent they all so great?? thank you again to emily and all the others who sent me pics! :)
here is the link if you dont want to watch the slideshow :)