Ugh...

...i need some prayer! i feel so stressed out! i know that in a few weeks everything will be fine, but right now i just feel so overwhelmed. i hate complaining...i also hate feeling like i am not in control. heard this before? probably! i am not sure why i am so bad and just letting God do His thing...just trusting that He knows what He is doing. its one of those things for me that my head and my heart war about what is "true".

i know that we are following what God has for our family right now. i know that everything will work out. today, i didnt "feel" like that. we had to have our house inspected a few weeks ago for the relocation company. we are so blessed that peter is now working for a fabulous company that is helping make the move process so much easier...it just takes a while for the relocation people (hired by cameron, peter's new employers) to get back to us about things. so, after a certain point, the company will buy our ohio home from us if we dont sell it, but that means that we have to meet all the standards or the offer is null and void. our inspections came back with a few things that needed to be "fixed" or changed (ie. the garage door sensor, a little tlc for the AC unit). the only big problem was a potential mold issue in the crawl space. well, after more testing and inspection, there really is mold in the crawl space and it seems to be a larger problem than we thought and/or needed. ugh!!! i have a feeling this is not good and could be very costly! our sweet friends, jon and lindsey, have been helping me get people out to the house to do the jobs, but i really hate that peter is not here to help me! i have a feeling that some of these guys will try to take me for all i am worth...especially on the mold. please pray that all the work can be done in a timely manner and without too much cost. please pray that there are no other issues that come up!!

we have a good friend in houston that is allowing us to live in with him in houston, for free! i mean, we are helping with things around his house, but he is not expecting anything. he is one of peter's best friends and they are loving life...living the bachelor life, especially without me there! until our house in ohio sells, we will be staying with adam. while that is fine for a while, i will be more than ready to settle into a routine in my own home. please pray that we sell the house in ohio, sooner rather than later, so that we can really start looking for a new place to live in houston. please pray that peter does not get too used not having me there :)

the packers (yes, the company pays for people to come pack boxes...awesome!) come monday and the truck comes wednesday (one day later than planned, but that is ok). this gives me serious anxiety! not because i dont trust them to pack, but because this all seems to be happening so fast! i am feeling very emotional about leaving ohio and saying good bye. i dont want to be dealing with house issues during my last few days here...i want to be doing fun parties, lunches, home hair, shopping, etc. please pray that i do not get discouraged and that i will make the best of my time with my friends! please pray that i am able to keep my emotions in check...reign it in!

last thing...first off...the family reunion was a blast! sorry i dont have any photos. :( i did a horrible job of taking pics. we had so much fun just hanging out, playing games, and celebrating my grandparents' 60th anniversary. everything went off without a hitch, except for the hot air balloon ride saturday morning...it rained :(. maybe next time! so, if you read a few posts back, you know that peter and i have been trying to have another baby. i have tried very hard not to get discouraged and know that things will happen when they are supposed to. so...i have always been very regular (sorry if that is t.m.i). i have never been late, other than when i found out i was pregnant with Charlotte. i was supposed to start my period last wednesday and when that didnt happen, i got very excited! well, after three days i was super pumped, but was still getting negatives on the tests. then on saturday afternoon my period came. i was feeling every bad emotion in the book. i am sure that my body got messed up from all the stress and change in schedule in our lives, but i still dont understand. like i said, i know that God is in control and that He has a plan, but i was really upset, especially knowing i was saying good bye to peter the next day for several weeks. after plenty of tears and some hugs from my awesome hubby and my mom (who totally understands, unfortunately) i went out and enjoyed time with extended family. please pray that i will not feel like a failure when things do not go according to my plan. please pray that i do not let jealousy creep in. please pray that peter and i can keep good communication going while we are apart, off and on, for the next month and a half.

i know that you guys love me and pray for me!! thank you! i know that there are so many bright days ahead for us. tonight, i am going to take some time to thank God for all the things that He is blessing me and peter with...even on days i feel a little discouraged.

blessings, ALo