Tuesday, February 1, 2011

A Change is a Comin'

i am spontaneous...or i try to be. i try to keep things fresh and new. lately my heart has felt unsettled...i feel anxious. good news is i start counseling this week :). part of it is the fact that i do not sleep well. my good friend told me not to numb myself with medication but to rely on the comfort that only Jesus can provide. i knew that she was right. my problems with sleep are much deeper than what a little pill can provide. i fall asleep, but i wake up because of dreams...usually bad, some times good. i am praying that talking through the emotions and gaining some good Godly advice at the same time will help me, in time! but in the mean time to help settle this need for change or something different, i did the only thing i really know how to do...i colored my hair! :) for the last year my hair has been been platinum...like white. i would use a purple shampoo and conditioner 2x a week to keep all yellow tones out. it was intense, but i loved it and i really loved my faux hawk haircut that went with it! when peter and i found out that we were pregnant i immediately started growing my hair out. i knew that with all the hormones and good nutrition and vitamins it would be the best time. plus i thought that even if my hair looked like crap while it was growing out it would be ok because i would have a really cute pregnant belly...that would be the focus, not my hair, when people were talking to me. as things have turned out, i am still growing my faux hawk out...i now have the justin bieber cut...ugh! :) but...as the spontaneous person that i am and feeling like i needed a change i decided to forego the platinum and go with a chocolate brown, much to peter's delight! it is a big change and i do like it, but now two days later i am feeling restless again. i know that changing my hair color is not going to settle the emotions i struggle with and the feelings of unrest. i am praying today that i find my rest, both physically and emotionally, from the God that loves me. He has promised to be my Comforter, but i have been letting myself and my agenda get in the way of that. i am His and He will do as He has promised!

Psalm 38: 15 "For in You, O Lord, i hope, You will hear, O Lord my God."

Psalm 39: 7 "And now, Lord, what do i wait for? my hope is in You!"

Psalm 40: 1-3 "I waited patiently for the Lord; and He heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth---Praise to to our God; many will see it and fear, and will trust in the Lord!"

blessings, ALo

ps. pictures to come later! sorry!!


  1. sounds beautiful, just as your words.

  2. can't wait to see the hair. Glad you are going to chat with someone regularly. I will pray for this time!! Love ya!

  3. This has become my go to blog of late- you have a gift of writing and I look forward to your entries.
    I hope today is filled with blessings for you and your night if filled with peaceful rest.

  4. di, thank you! i am sorry for your loss. thank you for the encouragement and support!