Maybe Just a Shadow

well, today was fairly pain free. mostly, because they decided not to do the injection today.

i had the ultrasound to check my ovaries and uterus and to search for good follicles. the tech didnt know much, so i sat in an exam room for 40 minutes waiting for my doctor. good thing i really like him...guess i will have to get used to that...doctors seem to always make you wait. doctor todd told me that based on me being on day 16 (rather than 13 or 14) it was a little late to administer the shot. he could do it if i really wanted, but he suggested i save it for next month or return it if i end up pregnant this month. the one injection is $31 after my insurance covers their portion...yikes!! i am thankful that he was honest and not quick to make me spend unnecessary money! he told us to continue "trying" the next few days. dr. todd was pretty sure that i did ovulate in the last few days (while at camp) due to a fluid sack where the follicles and eggs are. he did mention the small fibroid that they saw initially, but said that it was small enough it may be just a shadow. he then gave me the next course of action:

this week peter will go for a semen analysis just to be sure again. he has been taking all of vitamins like a champ! if i do start my period in a little over a week, i will go in to have my cervix dilated again on day 3, start a higher dose of clomid/serophene, have an ultrasound and follicle search on day 13 and possible IUI on day 14.

IUI: intrauterine insemination- IUI is a fertility treatment that uses a catheter to place a number of washed sperm directly into the uterus. The goal of IUI is to increase the number of sperm that reach the fallopian tubes and subsequently increase the chance of fertilization. IUI is a fertility treatment often selected by couples who have been trying to conceive for at least one year with no success. IUI may be selected as a fertility treatment with any of the following conditions:

• Unexplained infertility
• Low sperm count
• Decreased sperm mobility
• Requirement of donor sperm
• A hostile cervical condition, such as cervical mucus that is too thick
• Cervical scar tissue from past procedures or endometriosis
• Ejaculation dysfunction

www.americanpregnancy.org

i came away from todays appointment with hope. i could clearly see that God has been working in my heart and with my anxiety. i was glad to be able to sit down with dr. todd and ask lots of questions. he was great and helped me not get too overwhelmed, but encouraged me to enjoy "hanging out" with my husband. if we get to next month, then we will go from there. yes, there could be a lot to think about and stress over, but tonight i am enjoying being at home. we made cinnamon vanilla pancakes for dinner, im doing laundry, and catching up on tv i missed last week.

please pray that God would continue to give us both peace about each step in the journey. please pray that we would have clarity if we are not pregnant this month about what to do next month. we are praying specifically about whether or not we are ready for an IUI. 

on a side note: last night i had several strange dreams about camp (of course, camp has been all i could think of for the past 3 weeks and it was all over yesterday!). but just before waking up, i had two of the sweetest dreams about Charlotte. in one of them we were in heaven together singing Hosanna (one of my favs and one we sang at camp). they both seemed so real that i texted peter to tell him about it. i missed her a lot this morning! 

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. 

blessings, ALo