Stole It

it has been 7 months since we met and said goodbye to Charlotte. today, while driving, i thought about the entire two days we were in the hospital. most of it was hard...mostly emotionally and mentally, but there were moments that were hard physically. i know that i have blogged before about the great staff that we had in the hospital, but even 7 months later, i am still so impressed with them and the care that we were given over all. i will definitely miss that staff when we have a baby in texas. anyway, today was not a super emotional day, just a contemplative day. i have been so busy with everything else going on around me, it was really nice to have some time to myself to think about Charlotte today. i even pulled out her pictures to "spend some time with her" while driving. i miss Charlotte, everday. i think about Charlotte, everyday. it is crazy to think that it has been 7 months since i held her little body in my arms! every day is a little different, but i will never forget those moments that we had with her!


this next bit i "stole" from my friend erin's blog. i dont necessarily feel like this all the time, or to a tee, but some of it is true. i liked the analogy. 

THESE SHOES

I wear a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes, uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes.

Each day I wear them and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them


I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable

To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.


No woman deserves to wear these shoes. 


They have made me who I am.

I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

- Author Unknown


there is so much that has happened in our lives in the last 7 months...i am anxious to see what God has for us over the next 7 months!!


blessings, ALo